1st EnTrY in 2012

Salam,

wow...it's already 46days in 2012 and this is my 1st entry...why la i took so many days to write on whatever happened in my life...ayooo lahhh...

so in december entry,i already wrote the summary in 2011 but suddenly i feel so malas to recap pe yg dah jadi on that year...mmg byk yg best n sedih jadi...yg sgt2 bg kesan dlm hidup ak bila ak 1st time g umrah dgn mama n abah..terlalu bersyukur sgt2 sbb Allah makbulkan doa ak utk sampai ke sana dan ak harap2 sgt tu bukan lah kali terakhir....

selain tu...pemergian arwah nenek pas genap seminggu ak balik umrah sgt2 bg kesan dlm hidup ak smpai skrg...ak tak mampu nk tahan air mata tiap kali ak teringat kan arwah nenek...gelak, marah, senyum, kata2 nenek..terlalu jelas dlm ingatan....terlalu subur...ak sgt2 rindu kan nenek....sgt....teramat sgt...rindu sgt nk nenek peluk ak, cium ak, marah ak, gelak kan ak bila ak merajuk.... Ya Allah, hamba Mu ini tidak mahu nenek yg lain di syurga nanti...ini lah nenek yg ak nk sampai syurga...lately ni pun ak sll mimpi kan arwah, ak tau, ak dh lama tak ziarah kubur dia, mungkin arwah nk ak ziarah dia...insya-allah nek, nana akan ziarah nenek nnti...

mengingati Baitullah, Rasulullah n nenek membuat rasa rindu n sayang semakin tebal....ak amat berharap dpt kembali ke rumah Allah n menziarahi Rasulullah serta sedekah kan Al-Fatihah n Yassin buat arwah nenek, semoga Allah memberi kesempatan tu selalu buat ak...insya-allah....

2012...tahun yg ak akan byk berjalan2...emm...berjalan2 makna nya cost, cost tu duit, bila nk duit kena keja, bila pikir keja, ak nk keja lain....almost 3 years working here make me so tough to face whatever happen in my life, kadang2 tu rasa mcm...bak pi la pe nk jd, janji ak wat keja ak...dah...akhir bulan dpt gaji...done...but smpai bila ak nk gini???ak nk capai kepuasan dlm bekerja...dulu..masa en.hasnul de, k.azah de, ak happy n feel so confident, dihargai n rasa sentiasa diperlukan...but now???rs kena buli, rs kena tindas....ak amat2 berharap dpt kerja yg memberi self esteem yg maksimum...i really need that...i know i can do better n better but bila ak wat yg bagus org tak nmpk sbb ak ni tak pandai kipas....ak bab membodek ni mmg laaaa...langsung2 tak teror...serius...

selain tu this year, ak target nk beli keta n further master...really hope at least could achive one of the goal...insya-allah...saving for my 2nd umrah...insya-allah kalau cukup, nk g next year...so this year my gaji sume dah de lubang nk kn g...mana nk saving for umrah, keta baru, vacation...ayooo...byknya...all the best for me lahh....

starting this year ak dh hbs kan baca 3 buah novel, de lagi 2 on the way...walaweiii...tetiba ak layan novel skrg...huhu...apo kono eii kau...angau ko???tak tau nape tetiba nk melayan novel...gigih plak tu...juz bila ak start nk baca ombak rindu ak slow sikit...sbb dh tgk filem kan so mcm tak berapa mencabar nk tau cite tu...huhu..

mama will retired this May n will start her beads class in April, so sbb tu la ak kn de keta sendiri sbb mama nk pakai keta nk g kelas...hohoho...along nk sgt satria neo...ak bukan kesah, asal tak wat hal, ak ok je...so nnti we wait n see la how...jd ke x amik Neo nnti...tggguuuuu....

owhh...ahad ni ak akan fly ke bandung for the 2nd time after 3 years...mcm teruja jugak ni...hehehe...shoppinggg!!!!the best therapy for all woman...kikiki...tp sbnrnya mcm tak tau nk beli pe...boleh tak gitu??hehehe....

tahun ni rasanya mcm2 akan jd dlm family n life ak...mama akan pencen this coming May, so mama akan sentiasa kat umah, adik akan hbs matriks dia, hopefully he can get university dekat area sini2 je...along akan fly further his study in PhD....ak plak...amat2 berharap akan dpt further master...abah will getting busy with his broker insurance bisnes...and of course, every one will asked, bila anak sulung n anak kedua tu nk kawen...urrgghhh...lg2 soalan ni...kalau ak tau bila ak bgtau la...kan jodoh ni rahsia Allah, jd ak tak de jwpn utk tu...so plssss...stop asking that question again...n again....bosan okk....

sapa tak nak kawen weiii...along ak tu...duit dh ckp nk kawen, tp nk wat cmner???jodoh lom smpai...ak ni...jeles tgk org menambah anak tiap2 tahun or selang beberapa tahun...ak pun nk jugak...tp ayah nye lom de...hbs camnor...ak bg la kasih syg ak kat anak2 buah n anak2 kawan2 ak...jd lah....huhu...

Alhamdulillah...i thinks that's all for now....next entry mayb story mory pasal g bandung....yup i will update it insya-allah...

Salam...Adios...