SaLAM MaAL HiJRAh - 1435H

Assalamualaikum

today is 29 Zulhijjah 1434...which mean we have another 1 day left for new year in Islamic Calendar.....1435H...

every year (insha-allah)... i will make the awal muharram as the time for me to look back what i had achieved in a year as well as to plan what i should achieved in a new year....

like last year...de la dlm 6 azam yg aku nak achived....jom look what i had plan for 1434H

azam baru utk tahun baru-1434H...pe ek...think..think...

1. to be better person...health, appearance n of course to be better muslimah
Alhamdulillah....tahun 1434H ni...my health are getting better....even at the beginning..teruk jugak...but with the spirit...my asthma getting better....not fully depends on my inhaler...skrg ni dah jarang sangat pakai inhaler...my allergic pun..Alhamdulillah....sume punca dari makan...since i started take Herbalife...my asthma n allergic dah kurang sgt...i will continue to consume herbalife shake...not only because of the taste but it help me to be more discipline...skrg aku dah tak makan malam...i will take a food dlm kul 7-8...then dah no process food is allow in the stomach...only salad and fruit....but sometime amik jugak sbb tak mau rasa diri ni terseksa....for appearance...still cam dulu juz lately ni i try to labuh kan tudung but still look gorgeous..hihihi
 
 2. nk byk hadir kan diri n join program2 agama....
Alhamdulillah....even dua je program besar yg ak hadir...BaitulMuslim & Bidadari Dunia....but for me it's a good start...sume depends on masa n financial jugak...but since start Master ni...susah sikit la kan...sbb kelas on weekend n the program also on weekend...but if the program during my long break...insha-Allah akan di usahkan

3. tak mo dh looking for a guy...Allah dh sedia kan jodoh utk ak, juz ak kena jaga hubg ak dgn Allah....yesss...i hv to do that!!!
hahahaha....part ni payah nk ckp sikit....dlm setahun ni mcm2 jd....i get to know 2 guy from my supervisor and my cousin...tp dua2 tak menjadi....sbb....yessss....i admit that both tak menjadi because of me...bukan choosy sgt but....ermm...cam ner nk ckp yeee...or the best word is...it's a juz sign of bukan jodoh...ok full stop...

4. wat Master!!!!
Syukur Alhamdulillah....aku dapat further my EMBA last september....mmg tak sangka sgt...hadiah di bulan Ramadhan yang terbaik aku dapat....so far dh masuk bulan ke 3...what i can say..yesss...it's tough...seriously tough...hope i will be more tougher to face all the challenge....amin....amin...amin...ya rabba alamin....

5. planning for next Umrah....
Umrah have to be postpone until 2015...pas aku habis master sbb kewangan n masa... Insha-allah..doa yg tak pernah putus utk kembali ke Tanah Haram yg di rindui...dan masih berharap ziarah kali ke-2 ni utk pergi bersama seorg lelaki bernama suami....insha-Allah...semoga Allah makbulkan...amin...

6. start planning for joining walkathon!!!pas walkathon...marathon plak!!!ermm...interesting....
ermmm....planning pun mmg tak de....not fit enough to do it....hihihi...but skrg ni selalu jugak gi jogging depan opis...ok lahh....ahaks..

Alhamdulillah dlm tahun 1434H....byk jugak yang aku achieved and on the same time....byk sgt benda yg jadi dalam hidup aku...

i believed whatever happened must be a reason...n even sekarang pun aku dah nmpk kenapa sesuatu tu harus berlaku walaupun sakit untuk di terima...aku kena kuat kan diri....kukuh kan hubungan aku dgn Allah & Rasulullah...

so next....azam 1435H

1. Dean List for every sem....yesss...i know i can do it...yes it is tough but nothing is impossible
2. Better Life....keep fit and loosing weight slowly....
3. Plan for a my own business...
4. Tukar keta!!!!my Viva now dah 5 years with me....so next year is his 6 year old birthday...hehehehe...so time to change...reason...to reduce my expenses to keep repairing him...
5. Buy an apartment....abah dah keep on sebut pasal beli rumah....ok...so i have to be more seriously about this...hopefully my next increament can afford me to buy it....Amin....
6. Future Husband.....ermm...ermm....ermm....ermm...insha-Allah...please pray for me...

sometime...like seriously....i felt that i have everything...what else i want in my life...yess...my life is incomplete until i get married....but marriage is something u cannot force it....u can put an effort but Allah still the One who decide what will happen....me...as HIS slave...i have to be a good muslimah and believe that Allah dah sedia kan jodoh untuk kita....

tipu lah kalau aku tak pernah rasa down bila tgk kawan2 dah kawen...ada anak...dah tunang...tp ak masih macam dulu...masih sorang...like Ustazah Hafizah had said based on one of the surah...manusia di jadi kan sentiasa berkeluh kesah...byk sgt complain....tu tak betul...ni tak betul...jd mcm ni pun bising...jd mcm tu pun bising...what will i do when this feeling suddenly exist...istighfar byk2....be positive....be rational.....byk2 doa...byk2 mengadu kat Allah.....Insha-Allah hati akan tenang dan redha....

Ok that's all for now....
Adios!!!Assalamualaikum.........

Owwhhh...dun forget to baca doa akhir & awal tahun........

FoRGivE & fORgEt

Assalamualaikum.....

sometimes a fren always asked me....

dee...are u happy with your job...with your life??

and my answer...of course i am happy with my job and life....

sometimes a fren always asked me....

dee...don't u feel alone???you do not have any special yet, right?

no...i never feel alone...i have my family and my besties that always be there for me....

the most important....i have Allah that always be there for me for every second....

sometimes a fren always asked me....

dee...don't u want to get married and have a child?and when you want to get married?

yeahh...of course i want to get married and have my own child...but Allah know best...

HE know with whom and when i will get married...i believe my future husband is preparing to be the best hubby and dad for our family....

sometimes a fren always asked me....

dee...don't you have any problem?how come u always look happy???

yeah...i have a problem...with myself...my family...my fren...my job....and my study 

i'm always look happy bcoz i believe whatever happen must be a reason....try to be positive as i can...Allah know whatever HE had plan for us is the best....just follow the flow...and do our best...

sometimes a fren always asked me....

dee....yesterday i saw you cry...i saw you not in the mood at all....refused to talk with other...no smiling in your face...i believe you have a problem and broken hearted...

but today...i saw you smiling...you so cheerful....you look so energetic....how you transform in a day????

FORGIVE & FORGET.........yes it hurt....but you have to forgive everyone...no matter how big he/she did to you....not only forgive...but you have to forget... yeahhh...it's not easy to forget whatever others had done to us....for happy life...you also have to forget...let Allah repay whatever others had done to us.....   

sometimes a fren always asked me....

dee....even a fren had back-step to you...you will forgive and forget???

yeahh....of course...but...of course i will feel so upset...i will cry the whole nite...i will ask myself...what i had done...do i did anything wrong to them....why they do this me...i will be so drama queen....and i guess what...after that i will be more release...and try to forget whatever had happen...and pray to Allah....let me be more strong....be more patience....be more rational   

forgive and forget.....yup...that's make me happy....be positive...be rational...be strong.....

LiFe iS UnEXpecTed!!!!

Assalamualaikum....

lately ni banyak benda yang jadi dalam hidup aku....even break for mid-term for 2 weeks....my life still busy with a lot of thing.

last Friday, masa farewell 2 of finance staff...abah whatapp....nak ikut balik rumah atok tak....curious jugak napa....so aku tanya la...ada apa2 ke??abah bagi tau atok tak sihat....Ya Allah...rasa baru je jumpa atok hari selasa, nampak atok ok je...bila dapat tau, atok meracau2...buat aku risau....rasa nya belah atok tak de simpan apa2 sbb family atok dari keluarga yg kuat agama...

so pas maghrib balik seremban, aku yang tengah demam time tu..gagah kan diri jugak....mmg sepanjang perjalanan ke seremban aku tido je....seriously tak larat kot....sampai umah atok, atok dah tido...tu pun pakcik aku cakap malam ni la nampak dia tido lena kalau tak...kebetulan my cousin yang doktor kat spital Muar datang melawat sekali...so he advise, bawa atok gi spital sbb takut atok hydrated so it will effect other organ to since atok dah tua, antibody tak kuat. tak lama pun kat umah atok...pas2 balik KL balik...owhh...sempat la jumpa my new nephew, Ahmad Umeir...alolo..cute je...auntie takut nak pegang sbb auntie tak sihat...nnti Umeir sakit plak....

on the same day, my fren informing me that one of my course mate masa diploma pass away petang tu, kul 5.30 due to cancer....Ya Allah....kalau Allah nk amik nyawa, bukan kira umur...kalau dah ajal, Allah amik jugak...kenal arwah masa diploma kat lendu dulu. she's a nice gurl but very outspoken, after diploma, she's got married and de 2 org daughter..de juga a few time jumpa dia kat shah alam...n dah lama tak dgr story dia, tau2 dah xda...kami tak la close but during my diploma, in Business study, we have about 3-4 classes with 98 student, believe or not kami sume kenal each other, even tak rapat but we know each other, that's why masa convo diploma dulu, kitaorg boleh kumpul n amik gmbr ramai2...time diploma is best moment ever....

actually this is not the 1st time i lost a fren due to pass away, de jugak my fren masa primary dah pass away...but not sure due to apa...tp rasa nya sakit jugak....sorg lagi kawan masa diploma jugak, she got an accident and pass away. pemergian arwah mmg agak terasa...even tak contact dia due to busiest with keja....tp tau jugak la pengembangan dia....aku dpt tau pun ain call....mmg agak terkejut sbb arwah pergi tanpa ada apa2 sign pun....Al-Fatihah buat semua sahabat2 aku yang telah pergi menemui Illahi..

Assalamualaikum